YodaMamma MS & More

My Photo
Location: Crescent City, Fl, United States

I am 60, have MS, am an avid cook, love making candles (soy) and watching the endless parade of Nature outside my home. I treat the MS with supplements and LDN, I do not use any of the C.R.A.B. MS meds, we don't get along well. I was married for 13 years, we were together for 15. We are now divorced. Sad, that. I do still love him, but ONLY as the father of my baby. Better to keep it civil, hurts the child(ren) less that way, but is oh-so-hard to do sometimes.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


It is good to have friends with talents and abilities...I have a good sistah/friend who happens to be a vet(erinarian). She wanted to come visit us to have Rob do some energy work on her. I asked her if, while she was here, she could give the girls (cats) their shots, so I could get vouchers to have them spayed. She said she could go one better, she could spay them, right here!!! And she did! Last Sunday she came over, did the girls, got the energy work, had dinner (steamed shrimp & wild rice pilaf) and had a generally good day with us. Now for the part where God comes in...apparently L'il Bit had an enlarged uterus, was generating too much estrogen, to the point where her blood was changing, red/white blood cells and blood platelets, she didn't clot right, bled a bit even after she was closed, and she would have fallen ill and died had we not spayed her. So we saved her wee life!!! I am SO glad God allowed us to keep her for a bit longer...she is precious to us. The girls are doing just fine, eating, purring, even playing. (Thank You!!)
As for moi, I went to the Dr's again today, to see the cardiologist. He seems to think my ticker is fine, which is a good thing...but he wants to do a stress test just to be sure. Not the kind with actual stress, but where it is "induced" medically, since I could never go through the treadmill kind. My MS is doing very well, I am grateful for that.
Rob went to the Dr, too, he has some depression issues. The Dr sent him to a psycho, I mean, psychiatrist, who then wanted to put Rob on some really nasty toxic crap that would basically chemically lobotomize him. No Way is he taking that stuff!!! We looked it up, the Dr is trying to kill a mole with a jackhammer. Rob does have some anger issues, and rightfully so, yes, but he in no way needs to be medically shut down, he is not dangerous, and the Voices are good ones...The Dr is from the Middle East, so I told Rob that there must be the Master Plan....chemically lobotomize our men one by one and then take over the country...(just kidding you know).

Sunday, March 27, 2005


Bugly is our Truck, as you can see...Big...Ugly...Bugly.
Bugly is SO big I have to stand on an upturned bucket to be able to get into it. No joke. It *is* somewhat embarassing but I'm getting used to it. Bugly is 20 years old and when she runs Rob and I cannot talk over the racket. I want a Mage to come and turn Bugly into something I can get into without help. Bugly is the only plaid truck I'ever had. If you see Bugly, you'll know I am somewhere near, since Rob usually walks wherever he goes, when I'm not along. I don't blame him. I'd walk too, if I could.
The pic of me...I gave Robbin the camera and told him to take a picture of Mommy, that's what he took...pretty good, huh?

A somewhat better pic of me, Robbin took it :-) Posted by Hello

Bugly...Big Ugly. Posted by Hello


Rita is Rob's sister, and this is her latest email:
April 30th 9 pm & May 1st 1am 2005 Kato's Habanero Chocolate Bars will be featured on the Food Networks show Food Finds.

So if you missed it before here's your chance to see Kato the Habanero eating dog and hear the story behind Kato's Habanero Chocolate Bars.

Thanks to everyone for their continued support
Mick,Rita, & Kato

I know *I*'m going to be watching, I Love those Habanero Chocolate bars!!!

Saturday, March 26, 2005


I haven't been writing much I know, and yesterday my PC was on the fritz (Mercury Retrograde strikes again) but I'm back online again.
I have had some "mini exascerbations" lately, fingers and/or toes going temporarily numb, but with rubbing and time they've come back. I just hope it doesn't mean I'm, in for a big one.
I wish I had a more comfortable bed. I used to have a Californis King, now we sleep on a futon. As anyone with MS would know, being comfy at night is hard anough as it is, without having one's bed being part of the problem. Futons were made for tiny Asian people, not for zaftig me. Rob's feet hang out over the end, and he is only 5'9. I also wish we had a decent vehicle to drive, so I guess there's the old "if wishes were horses" adage. Where's a talk show host when one needs one? Where's Sally Jesse to make my wishes come true? If I had my wishes come true I'd also ask for some excersize equipment. I think they should start a store where you can buy used excersize equipment, like you can buy used sports stuff...
I'm rambling now, so I'll logout.

Saturday, March 19, 2005


I was just reading about that little girl, abducted from her very bedroom and now killed, and Robbin was pestering me to make cookies. Al of a sudden I thought how her father will never again make cookies with his child...the cookies are in the oven.

Thursday, March 17, 2005


Well it seems I am doing *something* right. In the last few days I have seen both the Neuro and the Gp. My MS is So under control that he doesn't want to give me any drugs, seems I'm doing just fine without them. He and I did discuss LDN, he was at first against it, but he said he will look into it. I think he came around when he asked me Why, if LDN is SO effective and So cheap, is it not yet approved? I told him he might have answered his own question, that the fact that it IS cheap might be the reason it is not approved. He had to admit that that might just very well be the case! Then on to the GP, well, I have the BP under control, the Diabetes also under control, and I've lost 8 lbs!
BTW, Happy St Patricks day. I'm wearing my green shirt with the celtic pent.
They're doing a damn fine job of ripping up the street outside. Seems we're getting Natural Gas lines put in...which is actually great, since we'll be able to convert things like the stove and the hot water heater to gas... I hope we can get out this afternoon, the local Homeschool group is having a playdate at a local park and I'd love to take Robbin.
Razzie is perched on my shoulder like a parrot....silly kitty.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005


I don't know if this is making national news, but there's been several mercury "scares" in DC schools (another reason to homeschool). When I was a youth, about 10-12 or so, I remember rolling a mercury bead around in he palm of my hand. Now of course we did not know how dangerous that is, and I wonder, could the MS be partially from that? I also, when I was 5, was attacked by a large dog, I have a deep scar in my skull, which fortunately my hair covers. Could That have something to do with it? I wonder hoq I got it, since I don't fit the "profile" for many of the other MS'rs, I was raised in he sun, in California and Spain, so I got lots of Vit D growing up, had long hot summers, short, cool winers. Never lived where it is cold unil I moved to MD. I wonder...


I think the time has come to tell of the vision I had when I was 3. It explains a lot about me, who I am, and why I am still here.
It was my 3rd Spring, which would make me about 3 1/2. We were living in Anapolis, MD. My Father was Military, Mother a June Cleaver sort (OK THAT changed with time). I was palying in the front yard, dressed in my pink bunny suit. It was still cool out, as it can be in Md in the early Spring. There was a hill to the right of our house as you faced it. It was not a big hill by adult standards, but for me it was huge. I had no knowledge at that time about God, having only heard the name in a non-religious form until then. I was playing with my back to the hill. All of a sudden I heard a noise, a singing if you will, impossible to describe. What I later on, with adult knowledge and reflection, to be the Chorus of the Angels. And Angelic it was. I have never heard music to match it. I turned around, and standing IN the hill, and towering above it, was a Woman. She was translucent. I could see through her. She was beautiful, with long, flowing auburn hair. She bade me to turn around. I did. I must say I peeked. Then I saw Her turn into a Man. It would be hard to describe Him, he was EveryMan. I knew at that instant that He was God. How I knew I cannot tell, I just did. He "spoke" to me, I heard Him in my head. He said I was not to be afraid of Death, that I was to help "many thousands of people, one at a time" Then he also bade me turn around, and as he faded I again heard the Angels Sing. That, too, faded away. Short, but probably the 1 minute I will never/can never forget. I doubt it took longer then that, as a child I had no reference to the passing of time.
So there it is, take from it what you will. That is Why I belive that God has two forms, Male And Female. He is the Hunter/Gatherer/Protector, She is also called Mother Earth/Nature. She is the Nurturer. They are both responsible for our Spiritual side. It took me many years to figure out WHO the Woman was, since I was raised to believe God was strictly Male. Now I know She is The Mother.
Thank you for reading, this is not easy to write because I know people will think me either crazy or delusional, but it is the absolute Truth.
In conclusion, Am I a Christian? Not really, not in any conventional way. Do I believe in God? With all my heart. Always have, always will.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005


I awoke to a blindingly white world today!Really beautiful, but hard on the eyes!
Tysabri...well the recall is a big blow to us. I wonder, the two who were affected, both also took Avonex...How do they KNOW it was the Tysabri, not the Avonex? Or the combinaton?I was going to go on it, and I Bless and Thank the ones who went before. Their sacrifice might have saved my life. I was a bit appreensive about one thing...they give it in *1* ifusion for the whole month...what if one has a reaction? As in allergic? It is in the blood, a whole month's worth, so what do you do? I was worried about that...now that worry is erased. I think I'll just stick with my supplements and the occasional pain pill, and the minimal meds for the other things like Diabetes and hypertension, keep them under control and keep off the MS meds. They just don't know enogh abot MS to be efective with their drugs, and I for one no longer wish to fall into the Guinea Pig category...(Ginea Pigs are SO cute, I want to get one *a real one* for Robbin)(and for me)
Well the soup last night was wonderful...yummy! I have left over, but probably won't have after lunch :-) Tonight, Salmon maybe?