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I am 60, have MS, am an avid cook, love making candles (soy) and watching the endless parade of Nature outside my home. I treat the MS with supplements and LDN, I do not use any of the C.R.A.B. MS meds, we don't get along well. I was married for 13 years, we were together for 15. We are now divorced. Sad, that. I do still love him, but ONLY as the father of my baby. Better to keep it civil, hurts the child(ren) less that way, but is oh-so-hard to do sometimes.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Beliefs

I think the time has come to tell of the vision I had when I was 3. It explains a lot about me, who I am, and why I am still here.
It was my 3rd Spring, which would make me about 3 1/2. We were living in Anapolis, MD. My Father was Military, Mother a June Cleaver sort (OK THAT changed with time). I was palying in the front yard, dressed in my pink bunny suit. It was still cool out, as it can be in Md in the early Spring. There was a hill to the right of our house as you faced it. It was not a big hill by adult standards, but for me it was huge. I had no knowledge at that time about God, having only heard the name in a non-religious form until then. I was playing with my back to the hill. All of a sudden I heard a noise, a singing if you will, impossible to describe. What I later on, with adult knowledge and reflection, to be the Chorus of the Angels. And Angelic it was. I have never heard music to match it. I turned around, and standing IN the hill, and towering above it, was a Woman. She was translucent. I could see through her. She was beautiful, with long, flowing auburn hair. She bade me to turn around. I did. I must say I peeked. Then I saw Her turn into a Man. It would be hard to describe Him, he was EveryMan. I knew at that instant that He was God. How I knew I cannot tell, I just did. He "spoke" to me, I heard Him in my head. He said I was not to be afraid of Death, that I was to help "many thousands of people, one at a time" Then he also bade me turn around, and as he faded I again heard the Angels Sing. That, too, faded away. Short, but probably the 1 minute I will never/can never forget. I doubt it took longer then that, as a child I had no reference to the passing of time.
So there it is, take from it what you will. That is Why I belive that God has two forms, Male And Female. He is the Hunter/Gatherer/Protector, She is also called Mother Earth/Nature. She is the Nurturer. They are both responsible for our Spiritual side. It took me many years to figure out WHO the Woman was, since I was raised to believe God was strictly Male. Now I know She is The Mother.
Thank you for reading, this is not easy to write because I know people will think me either crazy or delusional, but it is the absolute Truth.
In conclusion, Am I a Christian? Not really, not in any conventional way. Do I believe in God? With all my heart. Always have, always will.

1 Comments:

Blogger Whimspiration said...

Brave and beautiful post.

Though I must admit I have never met anyone else who was given any task that ended "one person at a time" or similar before. My fate was to make everyone I meet, genuinely happy, for only a moment.

No matter what titles you claim, I'm honored to have discovered your blog and been allowed to view your life.

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