YodaMamma MS & More

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Location: Crescent City, Fl, United States

I am 60, have MS, am an avid cook, love making candles (soy) and watching the endless parade of Nature outside my home. I treat the MS with supplements and LDN, I do not use any of the C.R.A.B. MS meds, we don't get along well. I was married for 13 years, we were together for 15. We are now divorced. Sad, that. I do still love him, but ONLY as the father of my baby. Better to keep it civil, hurts the child(ren) less that way, but is oh-so-hard to do sometimes.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


Has it been a year already? Today if the one-year anniversary of Rob and my divorce. D-day, as it were. For dinner I am making BBQ ribs, baked beans, collard greens and maybe a Jonny-cake. Celebratory, if you will.
Almost daily. No, not almost. Daily, I hear from Robbin (and often Rob) about things they hated and/or resented about living with *her*. I have to keep telling him that they are miles away and that era is over, not to be repeated. Some of the things are what you or I might consider minor, but they apparently really rankled Robbin. Like the water. Apparently the house had some fairly nasty water, and *she* had a Brita water pitcher and would not let Robbin drink the water from it, and she also had a small fridge in her bedroom filled with individual water bottles and she wouldn't let him have them. Small to you or I, but to him, Huge. And I think very selfish, why would she make my son drink the nasty water and not let him have good water? She who said she loved him SOOO much...Yeah, so I see.
And I hear a lot about her daughter. Now, her daughter is gay. Nothing wrong with that. But what IS wrong is the daughter going about with a shirt on that reads "I eat pussy like a fat kid eats cake" Now THAT is wrong on more levels then I care to go into. And she ALLOWED it? In front of my very impressionable child? I have to keep telling MYSELF that it is over and he will never have to see that again.
SO, on to better things...
I love living here, soon I hope to have renewed my driver's license and have something decent to drive, then I will be out and about again YAAAYYY! I also want a golf cart, I SO want to go fishing with Robbin and to go around the area, there is so much to see and do and I want to see it all and DO it all. I also can't WAIT till I have a few bucks in my account that I can spend taking Robbin to Epcot. That has been my dream for YEARS, I never thought it would be possible, and now it IS possible! And it WILL happen..and soon! I know it!
So yeah, it has been a year, and quite a year I must say! Can't wait to see what comes next *grin*

Friday, April 02, 2010

Well well well...

On March 12th I got a call from Rob. He was asking directions to my place. He had, apparently, left *her* and was coming back to me(with Robbin, of course). So what do you do when your ex shows up on a rainy Pa night, with your son...asking "Can we come in?" You open your arms and bring them in, dry them off and feed them. So that is what I did.
Within a week we had all moved lock, stock, and pets to Florida. We are now renting a really lovely home, we have two living rooms, one formal, one more of a family room, formal dining room, kitchen with island, 3 Br (we each have our own, I have the big one) 2 full bathrooms (one off my room, the guys share the other one), fenced-in back yard, little pond with fountain in the front yard, fully furnished! And the rent includes high-speed Internet, dishTV, electric, water, phone, central heat/air (and every room has a ceiling fan), big windows and lots of them! So we only have ONE bill to pay! And it is very affordable!!! The landlady is a peach, really nice woman, a few years younger then me, I guarantee we will end up friends!
Rob's mom and sister live nearby, I really have nothing to do with them, and that suits me just fine. Rob and I are not "together" per se, other then occasionally being under the same roof (he will be spending most of his time with his family, living there and only staying in his Br here on occasion, using that more as an office then a bedroom) and THAT suits me just fine as well. I have NO desire to remarry him, there is still too much water under that bridge. But he is trying to regain my trust, he knows he did the wrong thing, over and over, he is trying to make amends, but that will take time, lots of time, if ever. Meanwhile, Robbin is delirious with joy at being back with Mommy.
And while I *am* sorry that *she* is now in the same boat, and feeling the SAME pain that she caused ME, it is proof that Karma does indeed exist...and WILL bite you in the @$$...she should NOT have broken my marriage and stolen my son. She tried to buy them, buying them whatever they wanted, rewarding bad behavior with goodies, and hopefully now she has learned that you really truly can NOT buy love, only rent it for a time....I know, only too well, the pain, the hurt, the loss. I am sorry she is going through it, but I didn't cause it and cannot stop it. I am grateful to her for taking good care of my baby for the time she did. I am a bit dismayed, though, at how Robbin refers to her as a "female Mussolini", apparently she has some control issues and made him profoundly unhappy on many levels (and Rob as well). Well, all of that is now over, my son is happy, Rob is working his @$$ off with readings and has basically signed Robbin over to me (we went to the SSA office and he signed OFF on custody of Robbin), life is good again. No romance, but I don't really miss it (at least right now, maybe in the future...and maybe with another man). Rob knows he is free to go with whomsoever he wants, as am I. We are, after all, divorced (will be a year on the 14th!).
Yesterday was April Fool's day...which was:
The 13th anniversary of me finding out that I was pregnant.
The 6th anniversary of my finding out that I have MS, and
My cats 6th birthday (yes, she was born the same day I got my Dx.)
Only thing of note to happen this April Fool's day was me finding a blazingly silver hair on ROBBIN. He thought it was an April Fool's joke until I brought out a mirror...
So there is the update y'all have been waiting for lol...
Oh, one more thing...my blog seems to have attracted the attention of scammers, who leave "comments" pushing something (always signed "anonymous")...I am trying to delete those comments as quickly as they appear, I apologize for the spam. Please don't let that deter you from leaving legitimate comments (which will not be deleted).
You can also email me directly at yodamamma@gmail.com. That is not my primary email address but I do check it daily.